Sometimes saying “I don’t know” makes it all better
8/11/17 Dear diary.
I’ve been looking at my Bali photos, I love living simple and slow. I feel somewhat caught in the middle of two different lives right now. I don’t really know what I need. But I know I need less. Less things. Less ‘to do’ lists. Less rushing. And at the same time I need more. More generosity. More presence. More patience.
I always thought I wanted a big life. Big things. Big impact. Big job. But I think maybe I misunderstood and what I really desire is an intentional life that has an impact. A powerful and positive impact on those closest to me.
But like I said I don’t really know and I feel like that’s ok for me right now. So I’ll take those things I do know and start practicing them. Then I’ll see how I feel.
I’m not sure that anyone ever really knows what they need all the time anyway. Would it be boring to always know? Or maybe peaceful? I don’t know. If I find that place I’ll tell you.